Forgettable note

"Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because..
you make it hard to breathe..
Why do you do this to me..."

I could only say thanks for everything that has been pass by, for painting a big smile and dropping tears on my face, for giving some contrast colours on my "Painting of Life".
Just never guess it really had to be that fast through on my part of life.
I should really think that it's definitely a very wise decision of me, to stay away from you who can really break my wings worse till it can't be able to fly me higher anymore. My heart is not a toy, you shouldn't play with it..
No I don't blame you at all, perhaps the one who should be blamed is me, my self only, for the first time I let the meeting is ours, for the first time I let the conversations is ours.
Been so tired of all. One thing you maybe don't know about me is.. I'm not that strong, exactly not. Yeah, I'm not that strong to always act the disguises, said I'm okay then pretend that everything is alright.
Is there anybody gonna being hate to look up the sky now?
that should be me.
But no, please don't take it too long and don't make me hate the sparkling things there, seemed so unfair if it really happened just because it would remember me on you.
Thanks for the kindness, happiness, sadness, and all that I can't write on this forgettable note one by one.
Thanks for telling me a story or giving me lullabies when i was going to sleep in my fucking insomnia night. Being so sad when I have to say that I do miss it so bad right now, but I don't have any power to let the time goes back as I want.
For sure, you've colouring my paper, and that's my life.
Hopefully one day I could really strong to standing there with the wind, say that It so nice to know you in my life.
Hopefully I still strong enough to look up the things above me, every night.

In the corner of my room, oct 04 2011